✌ M.I.S.S.Y-K ❥

2011-08-25T23:56:00.001+08:00

I had a great day cause i met my friends today which i havent done in a long time.

Met E for bwax session at Orchard Central

E Doing her eyebrows in the toilet

♥♥♥♥

we went for a short therapy shopping at F21's 313 Outlet. Well in the end i bought a skirt which was originally like $119 or something at 19 dollars. its totally rip off. its fuckiing awesome i swear. and i bought a dress for like 49bucks. its the best thing ever cause its the kind of dress that ive been finding for though its not really the design that i fancy much but itll do :) Plus i cant wait to wear it out to club! Not to mention i met w my awesome friend Z today to get my stuff since i ship like every fucking thing to her house. i dont even rmb what i buy i swear. Anw most excited part is my shoes!! Got my heels! but i havent tried them on yet! but im so excited?!

So we speed on after that and trained down to Pasir Ris to meet Z to get my stuff!

After mtg Z we camwhored abit and went our seperate ways! Bus-ed home w Z! Though it was a short and rushed mtg i really miss my friends and i cant wait to meet kellie and cassy soon! Like i really miss all of my friends even friends that i dont fancy in school. I really miss everything in secondary school life. Its so different in poly now and i can honestly say its really different and i miss having people that annoy me constantly in my class and i wish we were in the same class.

So after rushing home to dump all my shitload of clothes and stuff i rushed back to town to meet my parents for dinner!

They had cool deco but the food was shit. well its not that bad that i couldnt eat it down but there really isnt any satisfaction level for me.and it was fairly deserted. oh well you nv knw if you dont try right?

Life As I Knw It

2011-05-22T14:12:00.001+08:00

Went to see auntie nellie’s dog today..super cute.

but it peed everywhere though it was potty train.

u knw when i arrived i was at the gate and he was at the door looking at me..

when i opened the gate he RAN inside the house..

and thn he came out again our of curiosity i guess and he RAN back inside the house as i entered the house

this dog really has no guts man..

but i swear its really friendly and cute :) but really high maintenance cause it wants to play ALL THE TIME.

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anyway….update of my life since school started..:

So far everything is not going well for me..

Sometimes i really wonder if what im doing is what is right for my future

because im really afraid to loose what is precious to me

and to loose what i might regret

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Now that im getting older i cannt make stupid decisions like i did in sec 1

and i wish these decisions can be easier than it is..because its getting kinda hard to breathe once in awhile.

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Ever since school started honey and i have met very less often as we do and honestly adding to the pt that things arent going so well for us..its kinda….adding to my troubles.

and i feel that i dont have someone i wanna talk to in spite of everything tts happen

dont get me wrong..i have friends and family just tt i dont feel like i wanna share this shit part of my life w anyone else.

just wanna get things cleared up first before i actually announce any shit news..

gonna meet him on weds morning..

gonna skip school in the morning to meet him.

kinda scared of what he’ll say actually

because i tried to break up w him ..i even unfriended him in fb..

really upset and torn in btw my conscience and feelings.

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i really wonder if we are meant to be…

But im guessing no?cus if im questioning it might be the one alr right?

and really wonder if he is worth all the pain he put me through

everyone tells me he aint worth it but thn i just cant let go.

i really wonder why

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its just sth about him tt makes my heart beats really fast and clenches really tightly till i cant breathe

his every touch on my skin leaves electrical sparks for me to feel.

i really wonder if i make him feel the same way too :(

and i really do hope he can prove it to me that he loves me by deleting tt bitch away from his life..

but i really doubt so..

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dearest told me to just listen to what he has to say..

makes me feel like someone supports my decision

so all the more i decided to meet him.

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hope i wont bawl my eyes out tt day..dont wanna feel dejected all day cus im staying in school till night time

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Dont really knw who i can turn to at the point of time…

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School so far has been okay for me.it isnt stressful or what

but definitely stressing about piano and CCA

i really hate giving time to join CCA because all the while i hate it

trying my best to be as optimistic as i can..

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and since school is kinda far away i havent been able to spend alot of time at home and i practically live at school now..since i spend alot of time there

but since i have friends tt aint tt bad i guess its still plausible.

and im loosing interest in piano fast.

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because of school and everything once i get home and study and stuff im really exhausted and tired tt i dont even feel like doing anything but just relax and makes me nt in the mood to even practice..

and im starting to hate it because i cant learn and do what i have interest in..

my personality is like that.

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i wouldnt say its a good thing but i really only do things or have motivation to do things tt i like.

i really dont wish to quit..is just tt im at at cross roads and i havent decided a shit.

i didnt really dare talk to mummy about it because all she ll say is that i can do it and i have faith in u i knw you wouldnt give up so easily tt kinda thing..

and ive grown i wanna make my own decisions and thnk for myself.

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recently ive talked to mummy and aunty and its really opened my eyes to see that i didnt knw ___ had this issue long ago..

it really makes me think tt its kinda scary and its no laughing matter because its very serious and it could lead to depression or split personalities.

i really hope that this person will get better..by expressing the feelings of theirs more.

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“Even though people that you knw may look strong and cool.But youd be surprised at how insecure,lost and afraid they actually are.”

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Exams and tests are coming up soon.Hope ill do fine!

And i hope that everything will work out fine in my love life.

and i hope i obtain good friends in this school! :D

2011-02-18T15:12:00.005+08:00

Yes okay so long time no blogged.i wonder if people are still using blogger since like practically people use other things now.but whatever.anw!

Am kinda like not blogging much cause idk i just stopped?its boring too

i got nth much in my life right now cause its holiday and im nt working

and i hardly meet up with friends.but occasionally here and there.

so is either i meet up with honey or some friends and out with my family than thats it.

kinda boring isnt it?

but i did do some things out of the blue.i went to hip hop class with cheryl and met some friends of hers.

but we went once and i missed it the following week cus i played wii with my cousin.

Recently i met up with my old friends and i really missed them alot.

havent seen them or talk to them for a while now.and we're planning to meet up nxt weekend

which i cant wait btw.

ever since last sunday ive been mtg with zilin for like consecutive 4 or 3 days.

and i met kel too.

i spent valentine's with zilin too! :D

which im really glad that i can still be there for her even when shes sad or whatever.

photos coming up!

13/2:

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2010-11-25T23:39:00.002+08:00

Kiseiki

Tonight i went to kiseiki with family for dinner

If you dont what it is„ it is a jap buffet lunch/dinner which is all you can eat. INCLUDING SASHIMI!

Though the great part was eating the endless supply of Salmon Sashimi and other raw fishes.

There were other great dishes as well.

erm there was the teppenyaki part.

Well they cook for you and deliver it to your table.

so you actually take the meat or the seafood and take the peg which is at the table and attach it to the plate.

and when they are done cooking it is served to ur table.

and there was also ice cream and waffles and drinks are endless

there is endless supply of food. there is even cold seafood.and pasta.

there is pizza and soba and udon and since there was about 10 of us.

with 6 pax, you are entitled to have a free “steamboat” it consists of vegs some parts of alaskan crab, (obviously they’re nt gonna give the whole crab right) and mussels and many many more things inside. so we all ate till we laterally dropped.

I still gotta say the best part of the whole meal is still the sashimi because its really worth it.

and they dont give shit soy sauces like some restaurants if u knw what i mean

But i think tt the service wasnt tt great and the plates tt were there most of them were not as clean as i expect it to be.

When you see marks on ur plate it just affects ur appetite and makes you nt wanna eat with tt plate.

and with every plate tt u use you are gonna wonder how clean is this plate.

So this aspect is a complete turnoff.

What was even more turnoff was when my cousin gave the voucher thing for the free steamboat thing to the auntie it didnt come for so long.

and i asked her(cousin) where was it.and who she gave it to and my cousin said the auntie wasnt at her booth,

so we waited for awhile and the auntie came back and i asked her(auntie) where was the steamboat and she was like “what are you talking bout face”

and i said my cousin gave it to you just now the coupon for the steamboat thing and she was like she did? and i was like yes.

and she still had the cheek to tell me you didnt give me the peg thing right and she still asked me to sit down the ppl will send it over.

and what was even more absurd was we ordered the steamboat thing so long and the table in front us got it alr.

and she wasnt cooking anything else.

WHAT TO DO THIS KIND OF PPL JUST MAKES UR BLOOD BOIL.

and she went to check and said no i didnt receive i was so wtf!?

and i looked at her pissed off and she said zhen yang?

ZHEN YANG??!?!?!?!?!!?

AUNTIE!I WANT TO STRANGLE YOU.

and p.s. the auntie is like the blurr senile auntie.

TOODLES! :D

2010-11-23T16:07:00.002+08:00

White Flower

So i went out with cheryl ytd to search for her prom dress! :D

And we did buy it,

and i cant wait to go out with her to kino and chill out at coffee bean or starbucks.

tt reminds me tt i need to organise my storybks

so when she tried the dress i tried some too!

Take a lookie! :D

2010-11-23T14:05:00.007+08:00

So prom was a complete waste of money

but i still wouldnt miss it cus its the really one of the memories tt you wouldnt wanna leave when you leave school

i dont wanna regret at my reunion dinner 30 or 20 years later that i didnt attend prom night

Even though its really bad and i generally didnt really enjoy myself.

a little since my friends were there but i didnt really like it.

but well no point looking back huh.

well during prom sister came up to all of us and hugged us and said goodbye

i felt tt it was so sad and touching

even though i complain about her all the time tt even my family knws about this infamous sister

but i felt tt everything she did for us is like not much but im definitely gonna miss her nagging lessons.

and i cant believe i actually said tt

but at the same time im actually glad i dont have to return to that stuffy old classroom

So im gonna say good riddance! with a soft heart

i think last week was a really busy week

i went out like almost everyday with sandhya to find a prom dress

and thankfully we did find sth

and weekend it was also busy cus it was daiyima’s and daddy’s birthday

plus i went down to airport to send my girls off to their geog trip

sad tt i cant get to go

oh and i forgot to take pictures with them before they go cus i was late for dinner with daiyima’s bdae dinner with lala and huiling at PREGO

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BTW Prego sucks alot right now.the service is like shit

the first thing they asked was still water or sparkling water.

and we bought like freaking 3 bottles before we realised they serve water.just normal water

Im so angry i could sue the waiter

and plus the food took so long to come and the standard of the speg really dropped.

the first time i came with mei mei yiyi i was so impressed with the pasta and the service but now im just plain disappointed.

Food aside, i enjoyed myself cus we all got to have a girls night out and chat for hours.when we came it was filled and like literally packed and we sat there until there was practically no one

and on the way when we left we went to starbucks to chill and talk more while we wait for our ride to pick us home.

starbucks didnt had space so we went to macs to sit which was beside starbucks

and we bought fries and cinnamon melts.

which was fun anw….

i actuallly realised tt lala went through alot and is still going through some personal things

and i really do hope she make a decision tt she feels happy and comfortable with and to actually grow up mature and beautiful within.

i also hope tt she you knw start making the decisions and stop waiting around

but hey who am i to say?

i mean everyone or every family has got its own problems, even mine.

Prego’s food:

2010-11-21T17:51:00.001+08:00

Time is a standstill

Right now is sunday but thn it doesnt make a diff to me because im on holiday

and i just realised that its gonna be the end of nov alr.

AND TT MEANS MY HOLS ONLY LEFT 4 MONTHS?!

that is fast man.i wish i can stop time.anw ive got hw

which is a first in a long time

i cant wait to get my new guitar so i can start playing songs

omg the worse thing of having a mac is u cant play online games

given tt im nt doing anything right now, ITS KILLING ME

Will upload photos soon

my camera is upstairs and im too lazy to walk up.

so until nxt time! :D

16 Days to O's?!?!?!

2010-10-09T13:03:00.001+08:00

Ok so i realised tt my blog is dead and ive been trying to log in but i cant rmb which pw and emails i used

so now i blogged and this blog is revived!!

I will blog again soon!!!! prob after O's!! when my life is more exciting!

So SEE YOU!

And thinking of switching to Tumblr too.We'll see! :D

2009-12-15T14:27:00.002+08:00

omg.school is opening soon

holidays flew by like this annoying fly

i enjoyed it

i wish i could stay longer in korea!

i wanna travel the world!i wish im rich like siao!

hais.

trying to figure out what to wear out for tml thurs and sat.

cant seem to find a perfect outfit.

anw so tired.

i am in love with my bedsheet

idk why after i change to this bedsheet thn i always wake up at 11 or 12.

like cannt get up!

i feel like a pig.

no matter how i cant slp over 10.30 but this bedsheet make me so comfy!

hehehe!

but oso my slping habits are all screwed up.

i bet when school reopen on the first day im like a zombie.

oh i think i got to go back to school this week

i think is thurs

but i just went to get my nails done last sat.

did mani and pedi!

so i decided i wont go!

hope i dont get in trouble -,-

last time skipped just a 2 hour lesson and got in trouble.

wow man was my parents mad!

hais sian

now like no inspiration to play piano!

but i still wanna learn though

but no inspiration!

inspire me!!:D

currently looking for nice colourful and printed trendy pants or tights

if you come across do let me knw!

thnks!:D

ok got to go bathe.

no pic today :(

cus i look like shit now.

need to wash my hair!

byebye!!

2009-12-11T16:16:00.006+08:00

Currently am doing a mask..

ive been staying at home and not going out.

i dont feel bored though

but i feel like a pig.

i wanna loose weight.

but well its not working.

im so addicted to my com.

ive been watching korean shows like all day.

or playing restaurant empire on my windows

its like wtf.no life.

totally feel like going out shopping or sth since well a "pre-prom" party is coming up.

im so excited.

its actually a bdae party.

shes one lucky bitch.

wish i had one big one liddat too.

but im determined that on my 18th bdae im celebrating in a club!for sure!!

right now im putting on eye masks.

ive been so obsessed with these things ever since i went to korea.

its like every few days i willl do masks tt sort of thing.

i want pretty complexion!

hehehe!

so far its going on well.

but thn got a few black dots on my face cus i scratched it thn it became liddat.

i ran out of my pimple life saving stickers so im trying my best to stay clear of pimples by boiling drinks like chrysanthemum tea cus anw the weather so hot.buay tahan

so wish im in korea right now.

it would be like 1 deg or 0 deg.

i wish i can stay in cold weather all the time.

i really love winter fashion.

its really damn nice.

with all the fur and stufff..omg!

i wanna go back to korea!

maybe nxt time i wanna go study there like 6 months?

and i really wanna learn korean language.

its like way cooler thn jap.

like jap the way they talk they like to imitate tv to act cute and everything but korean one is like they really talk like thatmostly.

thats what i feel since ive been to both korea and japan alr.

but i like japan too cus their fashion is really nice too.and they're very daring to wear coolourful clothes.

in korea there are but less.but i like jap food more.

hais!!!!!!korea+japan, pls marry me!!!

Oh was quite happy cus i got to see him.cus he came my hse.

spent some time tgt.

but thn i dont knw if i still like him or should i move on??

not sure!

trying to see if got any love there anod!

anw.....feel like changing my blog skin.its so boring.

woah i wanna be like 2NE1.they're so cool!!!!

+ big bang! i hearts big bang!

esp taeyang!

AH!!!!!!!

anw gonna post some pics for you!

lazy to post all so that will be it!

Melly unnie out!

Peace!

2009-12-09T15:22:00.002+08:00

wow like finally got back to singapore.

when i was there i didnt wanna come back at all although i hate the food but i really fell in love with korea!

did see alot of HOT guys like really ALOT.

got alot of pretty girls too.

most of them the figure all very nice and slim

not like singapore.

but its also understandable since their food is like clear soup tt kind.

and they got alot of hills and moutains and they got not much escalator but lots of stairs.unlike singapore

everywhere oso escalators.

singaporeans are so spoilt!

bought alot of things from there!

got about 3-4 times saw SUPERSTAR

korean one lahs.

seoul is a "small city"

we so lucky get to see them.

but idk who they are.

but boy are theyHOT.

got this guy who is the spokesperson for TEAR,a new shop that opened,walked right by me!

followed by many many of his fans of course

and a TV crew.

we were in a shop buying lipsticks/cosmetics thn all the shop ppl go stand outside and take their hp to vid and take pictures of him when he walked by.

walau esp the shop outside is all his fans and traffic jam there only sia.

so i did the same and ran out of the shop and vid him?!

BUT IDK WHO HE IS.

all of the shop ppl so excited sia.

oh and another one when we at the airport leaving we saw a guy being interviewed.

obvs he's a superstar from the way he dress and all.

still got body guard all.

hais.i wanna marry korea!

i love their tv and all.

so damn clear all HD liddat one.

and alot of han ju!

I love korea!

i would say i wanna marry a korean but i dont like kimchi...so too bad!

unless he wanna give up his food haha but i think tts impossible.

the food there is horrible!

i everyday eat cup noodles and macs only sia.

if not eat jap food but oso not nice!!!

who goes to korea to eat jap food?!

2009-11-06T21:36:00.011+08:00

I enjoyed myself today!

i actually went out with zilin and brought her to eat jap steamboat at marina sq!

she keep jk say what the food not nice.

but is really nice lor.thn yeah she said so herself.

and apparently we're going again.

Lets play iSpy.

ill start.

iSpy with my lil eye a cute boy working at suki-ya!

Apparently we found entertainment at the restaurant.

We had a heart to heart talk and well.yeah it was fun!

but you knw im going to have to reconsider the fact that she was like late!

i waited for her like half an hour leh!super boring.

maybe i should purposely do that to her the nxt time we meet.

haha nah im jk.im not that bad.but its not a bad idea hor?

nxt wanna go to eat western food soon!

i think we're having a food expedition or sth.

we should totally go travelling for food!

enough talk!here are the pics!

ok bye!

xoxo!

2009-11-05T22:02:00.003+08:00

Went to school for geog.

was BORING.

END OF STORY!

To friends.

2009-11-04T16:15:00.036+08:00

ok while im up in the moment i feel that i should do a tribute to my friends.

since well we're all alr separated.

some time around this time of the year,2 years ago,we all would be thinking we're going to be friends

best friends or even in the same clique even till the day we leave secondary school hand in hand.

but now things are different.

some may be leaving, some may stay but its not the same anymore.if you've noticed.

ok wait.hold up.

for my friends,get your tissue or your hanky cus you're going to need it.

ok so here it goes.

A tribute :For all my secondary friends who made an impact in my life.till today.

Firstly,

I knw we've been through alot since sec 1 and done all the crazy things and whatever

and i appreciate everything.sry if its too cheem or sth.but i bet you understand.

and you knw if i could've turn back the clock and do things again i would have done it exactly the same way.

i dont knw if you feel the same way but you bring out the devil in me

and well its not an insult.its sort of a compliment.

anyway.i hope everything goes well for you and all.

i still rmb all the drams we had and gossiping bout ppl in class

in lit class or any class and all the skipping classes.

i wont forget.like seriously.they're too fun to even forget.

Bet you're working alr eh!do ur best!

i love you "LYNN" and i miss you!

btw ah i havent like dl the songs you wanted me to dl.

now baidu cannt dl le so i nv really dl any songs now.

i just watch shows.

LIKE GOSSIP GIRL!:D

We arent exactly on talking terms but well

im really glad to have known you as a friend.

I still rmb all the birthdays and the funs we had even in class!(and CCA)

maybe in the past we may not really like each other that much.i knw.

but thats in the past and well i just wannna thank you for being a part of my life.

and thank you for being my friend.

all the best in whatever you do.

hope to see you in school nxt year when when school starts :)

sorry its like kinda short but well im really just thankful for everything.

dont forget we went to pizza hut at kovan.all of us when we're sec 2.rmb?

Since sec 2 we've known each other and we've grown apart and close and apart again.

well.i really miss you.i do.

to be truthful,some times its hard but well i really do miss the old times.

like you said i still rmb last year's halloween.and its alr been a year and things have change so much

ppl change.they really do.even if they are for better or for worse.

i knw for the fact that things will not be the same as before but well.

theres always a future to look forward to and i really cherish our friendship we had.

we may talk very much like we used to and talk less the nxt year or even not talk at all in future.

but well i just want to let you knw that you made a really big impact in my life.

and i for once will never forget you as my friend.

or even my dearest.

of all the memories,to the birthdays to the acting gig,to the chalets and partying and boys.hot guys.friends,and the swensen's and the dieting thing.

we've seriously been through a hell of a lot in these 2 years and to say the hurt from some of the fights or arguments we had.well they can still be felt because i rmb.

but people move on you knw.life's like that.

even if we're not good friends or even talking or whatever but i knw ill remember you.

in a good and a bad way too.

and i love you.so if nxt time when we graduate after we leave secondary school and pursue our careers in future,

and if you bump on me in the streets of singapore,(or not in sg)

rmb to say hi and say you rmb me and catch up with me for some coffee/drinks cus i dont think we drink coffee.

P.S noticed i didnt say shopping.cus well you knw what happens when we shop tgt.

We've been through alot also

from the guy things to being close to gossiping and all the things that we went through.

im sry if i wronged you or did sth you dont deserve

i really am.and well for once we became friends.

i still rmb that day we had family day on sat and it was my chalet.my birthday too

i still rmb you went with me to the chalet first and fell aslp on my bed too.

i still rmb my botak and everything we shared like for instance going to walk around CP two times each level till we feel like going home.

or going vivo and mtg friends and hanging out.coming to my hse.

and everything.

well these memories will be remembered.i hope yours will too.

i wish you all the best in ur studies and everything.

and if you bump into me in the streets,say hi.seriously.

You may not have liked me in the first place but well.

look now we're friends

and we may not have alot of things in common but well thank you for being there when i could talk to you and all the drama that we went through.

all the hurt and the pain we all felt at times and all the love you've given me

well to be honest at first i dont really like you too.haha

but well who knew right

we may not be very close and well talk alot

but one thing i like about you is you're crazy

well now not really

but when you're crazy you're like really crazy.

and its kinda funny.

and i still rmb this year's chinese new year when you wouldnt take ur bus home!and we've to wait for the nxt bus!

and we took lots of pictures in the bus stop.

you still rmb?

so much hve changed huh.

anw.thank you for everything.like seriously everything.loves.

We've talked we've fought we live like across the main road and yet we dont talk that much

but well i really hope you do your best in whatever you do and well

just thanks for everything.to all the things we;ve been through.

i hope we stay friends.theres not really much to say cus well

you're too good for words!

but erm....say less vulgarities!

Ive known you since like forever and well it seems like fate has like brought us tgt.

again and again and again.

anw sometimes we're close sometimes we dont talk at all.

some times we fight bout stupid things sometimes we obsess tgt bout clothes and shopping

sometimes we talk bout guys and sometimes we grown apart.

what im trying to say is, nonetheless no matter what we're friends ok.

and even if you are too busy for me when you go to shatech or whatever the stupid school is called.

just when you miss me or what you can call me or txt me

just dont forget me ok?

dont forget to call me out on a date!:D

a year ago it may seem impossible to not be friends but now well things really changed.

and well even if things change we still still remain in contact and talking!

the same goes for all of my friends.i love Z!

BTW GO WATCH GOSSIP GIRL LAH.NATE SERIOUSLY DAMN HOT!

Hey,just promise me not to go round stealing ppl's spelling books ok.

seriously dont even teach ur kid to do that!

Now we arent exactly friends i would call it.

but id just like to thank you for being there for me when i needed you

and i hope ive been there for you too.

now that things are like that id rather leave it at that.

i wish you to be happy and everything and i hope you pursue ur dream job.

dont let ppl put you down even if you are down

cus i the jacq i knw isnt like that.

just prove them wrong.

if you want it work hard for it and well.

honesty is the best policy.

to be honest im still dissapointed.

i still rmb last year at halloween when the first time we met tk and paris.

well.alot has changed.what im trying to say is thank you for giving me these wonderful memories.

even if it was painful,hard to go through,and well we've said some things we dont wanna hear again or do things i dont want to do again.i dont knw if you feel the same.

if you could handle things differently from the start.would you?

i still rmb the fights we had and the times we shared.i wont forget.hope you wont too.

You may be annoying and irritating and well just annoying.

but i still love you no matter what.

i hope you dont get tired of my bullying and well im still going to cus im not giving up!

cus i bet after we graduate you'll see less of me and eventually we're going to grow apart and you're not going to enjoy the privilege of being my small fry anymore!

thank you for being there and well for being so understanding through all the times we both need each other.

hope you really study hard cus you cant flunk ready k!

i believe that you can do it!

just preserver!

ILY bbg!

I may not have known you very well.

and im glad we've talked through the problems and misunderstanding we had

at least im happy i knw the answers alr.

well i really enjoy the beach the other day.

with all the hot dogs and everything.

hope we get A1 for our emaths eh.

thank you for being there when i needed to get things of my chest and everything.

and i hope you feel the same towards me.

so yeah thank you.very much.i love you :)

Here are the pics:

im just too lazy to sort them out!

lastly,thank you all for being a part of my life in the best highlight time of my schooling life.I love you and do rmb me kay!cus if you dont,im going to haunt you!when i die of course.lol.nah im just joking.

So a toast to all my friends or not friends whatever you wanna call yourself to me.

Cheers and i hope we have fate to be friends even in the future.

All the best to the new roads we take once we leave secondary schools and make new friends.

but just dont forget the old :)

i hope we can still be friends even if there are things we dont have in common.like going to the same school.

All the love,

xoxo

Mel.

My sunday :)

2009-11-01T22:58:00.004+08:00

Today,woke up kinda groggy!

slpt quite late but woke up at 10 and i feel terrible.

the worse part is my throat is killing me.

its like on fire and its itchy and everything

ok so im totally happy cus now its like my weekends are finally free.

i used to have so much tuition or whatever now is like woah free to go out orchard like i used to with my family.

So went out to eat dim sum at isetan with family and grandparents.

CRYSTAL JADE!

super full.

thn walked around and went to ion.

talked and chatted and had fun.

after that went to Huiling's hse.

did not expect to stay for dinner but well i did,

thn the best part is i get to eat my fav bee tai bat that dai yi ma cooks!

and she cook for me!!

WHOOHOO!

waited for like super long.

i ate along!

and talked alot of my aunties!

Dont knw if we're going away for christmas but well...

only time will tell rite?:)

Here are the pictures:

sorry for little pics.i was too busy eating to take any photos!

Anw!till nxt time!

xoxo!you knw you love me :)

2009-10-31T23:41:00.004+08:00

Today is quite a day!

firstly,

last night slpt quite late cus i couldnt slp.

stayed up watching my show!

im totally addicted to GG

its super nice!

im only at ep 11 of season 1!

i still got 2 more seasons!

and 90210 to watch and taking the stage

and also flashforward!

meanwhile,i think i better start on doing my pencil cases.

i mean.....i totally suck as a artist cus i dont do well with deadlines.

ill prob start on mon and give it to them by the time class started?

well...good news is my budin spree stuff has arrived!

thank god!

i totally have nth to wear!

im like bored with all my clothes.

hmm..maybe i should auction them and get a whole new set of clothes!:D

oh..gotta go learn abit of korean and get my bean hat soon!

its about 3-4 weeks from now till i leave!(to korea)

i totally got no winter clothings!

good thing can wear mummy's.

and i still got my fur jacket bought from Japan!

ah!!!omg!!!mummy say we're going jap!soon!again!

WHOOHOO

she say we're going to an onzen the nxt time!

hope i can experience snow!

super cool lah!

ok so....kinda pissed off cus my 42 inch tv is giving me problems again!

its like not the first time!

im totally not kidding.look at this:

guys!dont buy the brand i use!though im not really sure what brand it is!

nvm!

Today had a block mtg thing for hougang here around my blocks for lift upgrading.

apparently,it is quite interesting to watch

they were definitely claws out there.

but well,believe it or not,it was not at the MP

it was at each other's remarks.

Its like this.

We were given a Q&A session with the MP,Mr George Yeo,

and well..there was a certain person who seem to be unhappy because shes afraid of the noise level.(shes not affected.she lives on the ground level)

because the whole criteria is that those affected are the only ones who need to vote.

so lets say for my block,there are only two levels(common walkway)

its lvl 1 and 3.cus well its a mansionate.

and she lives on the ground floor.

she expressed that shes unhappy of the fact that it may be blocking the way or build in such a way that it is in front of someone's hse.

but well his anwer was of course that they have to look at the way the building is build as certain buildings are complicated in designs.

and she wanted to vote to not have a lift!

well after that another person leashed out at her saying that she shouldnt be so selfish because there are ppl who need that lift.

SO its like sort of a interesting moment.

after she said her piece,everyone clapped!Loudly!

well it certainly was an amusing event.

And another thing i noticed was that the MP was not prepared in answering the questions asked at all.

and it also proves one thing.

there were certain ppl who idk if their dumb slow or just plain not listening,they could just stand up and get the mic and ask questions of which are alr stated to us.

After that came home watched abit of tv!

had dinner with auntie and all at toa payoh for prawn mee!

it was quite fun!

heres smething interesting from facebook!:
M : Makes dating fun
E : has gorgeous eyes
L : is a very good kisser
I : is really sweet & romantic
S : makes people laugh
S : makes people laugh
A : crazy

Till nxt time!

Toodles!:)

2009-10-30T12:44:00.002+08:00

Went to school today

Well i skipped ytd

forgot to get my letter

the stupid nun say i cant take my report book if i nv give her my letter

in the end she oso give...

wtf lah.

thought today was going to be a long day at school

but we ended quite early

we ended at 10.40

our recess time,

went home

was kinda tired and everything

not feeling well.

took some flu pills and slpt awhile

just woke up not too long ago.

now i gotta blog while i load my GG

if not i cant blog anymore!

Totally got me addicted to watch.

but now bit tired to like watch.

cus i feel like shit.

not only cus of the flu but oso cus of some problems

recently we hardly talk and everything

so im kinda down.

and it seems like its not the same and he hardly txt me anymre.

im just sick and tired of going throught the same thing that happened 2 years ago.

i knw that feeling.

and trust me

its not nice.

so at that moment i was feeling really "brave"

so i quickly sent him a txt before i change my mind.

that was sent at 12.56PM

and now is alr 3.54PM

its been 3 hours and theres no reply!

tell me what to do!

i dont knw what to do!

im trying to get him off my mind!!

but nths working

and i dont feel like doing anything but slp it off.

and trust me when you've just woke up i dont think you wanna lie on ur bed again!

bet i cant slp tonight again.

these few nights i havent been able to slp well

and im so sad!

and its not like i can cry it out or let it out or sth.

cus i just cant cry.

or so sth to make me feel better.

im really sad!!:( and i dont knw what to do!

i totally hate this kind of guys.

i thought he was well.sort of different

but i guess i learnt it the hard way huh.

since all guys are jerks and they're all the same.

Toodles,

gonna go sulk.

2009-10-27T10:03:00.002+08:00

The day before the paper!

OMG excited!

and scared!!!!

going to having tuition and everything

so its kinda harsh!

but well....its a major exam rite?

Toodles!

LEE MIN HO At PS

2009-10-26T22:30:00.028+08:00

Ok so let me clue you in on what ive been doing for the last few days

which means yes SATURDAY!

Ive been looking forward to that day since almost half a month before

and not only me but im utterly devastated that he didnt show up.

okok back up.lets start over.from the top.

So.Woke up in the morning to get readyto go to meet cassandra,jess,siewli and marie

apparently marie overslpt

so went to meet cassandra at the mrt first.

thn took the train to meet jess first thn met up with siewli at doughby after that.

marie meet up later at PS.

so was quite bored cus we were earlier and theres nth much to do!

so we sat the the place nxt to cotton on and there were alr ppl queueing up

i have no idea what they were quesueing for

and i was guessing it is those with the tickets

cus you knw there are only a 100 of them.

got some quick bites

hung around

thn talked abit

and waiting till it was time

and man was it packed!here are the pictures i took.

we waited and waited and waited

got squeeshed.

got sweaty and got screamed at

but Lee min ho apparently gives a no show.

lots of fans including me is kind of dissapointed and angry that he gave a no show

cus well i just wanted a glimpse of him

but apparently there isnt any at all.

and i am totally sad!

i should have gone to JB with my parents instead!

and they are like.....keep saying that go there waste time and everything

just like how i expected it.

Anyway.since it was still quite early after we decided to leave PS,

we went to ion!to find prom dress for siewli!

aiyo!

i tell you ,the way they shop is like they will nv see anything

but in the end we got her dress

everyones happy

thn we went home!

but siewli and cassandra went to dinner at hougang after tt.

bought my salmon and sweet talk

and went home

cus i was craving for them :)

apparently

my parents decided not to come home early to have dinner with THEIR DAUGHTER

and THEIR DAUGHTER ended up having a lonely dinner.

ate some soup and rice for dinner after tt.

and went back up to study!!

or more like facebook!

Till nxt time!

Toodles!:D

2009-10-23T11:12:00.006+08:00

right now...im bored out of my wits!

Woke up like super early today.and theres no school!

Went to "work" with mummy and daddy.

had breakfast with them

thn went to lavender to get my new passport!

its kinda cool

cus its the new high tech thing.

but i prefer the old one

now the passport number and ur ic number is diff

which is kinda dumb.

so ive to like rmb new number -.-

anw...

went with ah ma oso.

supp to go visit ah zhor at serangoon but apparently no one picked up the phone.

so we went to buy otah.

after tt came home

and surprisingly my cousin came my hse for no apparent reason.

now hes like watching fast and furious on dvd.just bought it from malaysia last weekend.

bought alot of discs but havent watched it yet.

recently ive been thinking alot of everything i have and dont wanna have right now.

some things just bugs me some things make me comforting.

some things make me happy yet sad.its one of those bitter sweet moments.

but what i realise is i dont wanna be left behind.

so ive determined to work really hard nxt year.

i really wanna get good grades and get into a good poly for the course i want.

ive yet to decide what i what though

sometimes i wonder how ppl knw that that is the path that they wanna take?

how do you knw tts the thing you wanna have for the rest of ur life?

im afraid.

afraid of loosing the time and wasting my life away to having known that it isnt the path i wanna take.

im afraid of loosing ppl along the way.

ive lost some and win some.but its never gonna really be the same after this year onwards.

this year i did really really badly.

i totally dont have anything subjects that have a B3 or above at all.

thats what freaks me,

at least im grateful tt i have the chance for another year.

anw.....good news is tmr is the day the LEE MIN HO IS COMING TO SG!

im utterly excited!and i was hoping the promotion thing is still on for today

cus im going over to stude hse to get me some scratch cards.

i only have 16 bucks.

so its only enough for one.

not sure if lady luck is smiling on me today though.

i really wanna go there!

hes like autographing for 100 fans!

im so excited.

itd be a pity to not go there.

anw...hopefully i wont get squeeshed!

I LOVE GU JUN PYO/LEE MIN HO!!!

hot si le!

anw....moving on....but after the good news is the bad news...

Monday's O's IM SO NOT READY

so is maths paper

im totally not in the mood right now.

but im afraid.

my mother says that its definitesly hard to get an A and that we'll def be retaking nxt year.

which means we'll see the fucking nun's face more often thn you'd imagine.

which kinda sucked.

i was hoping id get an A thn i would be able to just do the other subjects

i wasnt pinning for chinese though

if i get a B3 id be alr over the moon.but i doubt tt would happen.

Anw i should stop soon.

as least now my blog's not dead huh.

dont knw if my loyal reader has moven on to another blog reading alr.

bet its boring to keep reading those big red words.

times have changed now.

people changed.

so have i.

ive got to admit.

im no longer the same.

cus suddenly,im aware of everything around me

every person's character.

its kinda sickening to say though that they aint pretty.

Id like to think the world is perfect and people are nice.

But the fact is,in reality.

NO ONE IS EVER NICE.

they just wanna be friends with you and stab you in the back when you walk away.

Seems like conficts are all around you knw?

sometimes i feel like there isnt anyone to trust.

thn now trust becomes an issue because you no longer knw what to believe or do anymore.

There are many questions in life that im figuring out right now.

and no one can answer them.

only i can answer them

and its making me wanna throw things on the wall.

i knw....anger management

my temper is getting like flared up these few days.

its like everything makes my day go bad.

and the worse thing is?

ive got no one to talk to.

oh you'd think id talk to idk a guy whose supp to be there for you.

or someone close to me?

but the fact is actually ive no one i consider close right now.

and im glad its like that.

cus you knw...i realise i like the peace

yeah its kinda quiet but ill make do

and the best part?

NO DRAMA.

there used to be so much gossip and drama going on.

yeah there are but i choose to ignore it,

cus its stupid.

but its one drama that really got me thinking is that.

if she went through all that.and she told me bout it means she trust me that much

though we're not that close compared to her close friends.

but why me?

and i knw ive been through lots of shit before.

but her shit was way like idk a tv show or movie.

and it was real shit.its like worse thn mine and it was way harder.

and i knw how it felt.

which makes me sad cus theres nth i can do to make her feel better.

gotta go.

BTW NEVER EVER GO SHOPPING WITH A GUY!

2009-09-06T12:41:00.007+08:00

The more i read whatever you all have to say the more i am getting angry.

in the first place what you did was wrong.

the way you handled things was wrong

perhaps if you would have talked to Z in the first place and told her how you felt about him

we wouldnt have been in this state that we would not even be friends at all.

Whatever you did was what you caused.

Stop saying that.

your srys and everything

whats the point

if i took ur life now

and burn joss sticks to apologise to you when you're alr dead

would you even forgive me?

So dont give us your crap.

The fact that now we didnt even say anything liao and you make it even worse by blogging this kind of stuff that you had enough of it.

How dare you?!

you were also the one who caused my frens hurt and pain.

and you dare say enough

Whatever we txted was cus we meant it.and the hurt you gave all of us is too much.

whatever i said i meant it as a fren.

i want you to wake up,

you said whatever you did would be wrong.

thn did you even think harder before you even did that ur good friend.

you said you felt tt she's like a close relative or sister to you.

sisters or even cousins would not do that kind of thing.

so dont even say this.

rmb what i txted you when you and z thing happened?

what did you promise me?

you said you wouldnt do anything that would hurt me and all of us.

you said it yourself

you said you wouldnt be like B

but in the end what happened?

did you even think carefully?

as a fren im still saying this because i care abt u

but it doesnt mean i will forgive or have forgiven you.

did you even think?

lets say you and him broke up?

thn?

what happen.

after 1 and a half years of friendship is just broken up with a guy you barely knw for less thn 2 months.

is it worth it?

i really hope so.

if he makes you happy thn ok.

but what about in the future?

the long run?

did you even consider?

you oso knw this:

guys come and go

but best friends/good friends stick tgt always.

and btw wtf

stop taking the blame for each other.

or TAKE FOR HER.

its annoying.its like some chinese wu xia pian love drama

i cant believe you.

after all this and you still treat her so good.

i think you've too nice heart.

idk to say you stupid or will be a good bf in future.

and some more you want us to act as if nth happen.

you think we can do it uh.

its utterly ridiculous.

you say you hate backstabbers and liars.thn arent you one too?

btw no matter how many liang xins i mo.i will never ever ever do that to a friend.

because at this age i knw that relationships dont last very long.

the chances are slim even if they do.

like i said to bear.i very zhong shi friends.

and all of my friends are impt to me,

i would go through great lengths just to protect my true friends.

and i can say you are also in no position to say that to us

=.= and by saying that you are asking us to put ourselfs in u all the shoes.

dont put dumb sentences pls =.="

you ownself said in order to maintain our friendship we must be honest

WERE YOU?

go and fan xing yi xia

i can swear i did not talk bad bout you ever.all of us DID NOT EVER.

what happened to trying not to lie?even a white lie?

you knw we didnt even intend to blog bout this at all.

since you all wanted to blog thn we've got no choose but to do it too.

whatever we blog is only for once.

after this post there will be none about you guys anymore.

because they will nv end

you can post whatever you like in ur blog idc.

whatever i said here is whatever i wanna say to you and tts all i wanna say.

after i said my piece if you are unhappy thn tts ur problem.

in the first place you were the ones who did wrong.

so i cant say that u dont deserve it.

and if you cried is cus you guilty and it was ur choice and it is ur fault

so dont blame us because you cried.

no one forced you.

its only been two days since we've knwn this.

how many nightmares could you have?

anw dont stress urself out.

i knw its hell

but since its ur choice

it comes with the consequences.

after today we all ge zou ge de.

we will not bring up this matter anymore.

i hope you and him last long.

cus he's all you have now.

good riddance.

i really wish you hadnt done tt

we are all sadden and dissapointed in what you did.

thats all i got to say.

live ur life happily.

i hope in ur nxt bunch of friends you really treat them well.

thanks for being there for me when i needed you.

but this time i cant be there for you when you need me.

i really wish i can.but its too late.

btw you are not the only one suffering and are in pain

WE ALL ARE.

2009-09-03T22:41:00.003+08:00

wow my blog is like dead.

hais recently alot has happened and to be truthful

im just tired of all this.

i dont even knw where to start.

i really have to update my blog

i mean im not 15 anymore.

so got alot to do,

i cant wait to go HK

i wish i can go and live there or go australia.

i dont wanna come back.

cus of everything.

every aspect of my life now is an added stresss

idk how to react dont knw what to do about it.

i guess it all triggered this cus of the hypocrite thing.

i mean come on.

you think im dumb or what.

idk why you think like tt but i mean....hais i really dunno what to say ready

so sad to see you cry and you dont want to clear the air :(

saddens me alot.

worse thing is it might nv be the same anymore

hais i cant wait to start a new life.

so tired to have this kind of friends leh..

i mean..hais its like a nv ending problem because of conflicts.

and its worse what qi hua is exchanged.

i wish you didnt say tt to make her upset.

i mean ur words were really hurtful.and you didnt even apologise.

can these problem even end?:(

i wish everyone can just get along :(((((

2009-08-13T17:14:00.002+08:00

Wow its almost gonna be the end of the week.

CT is ALMOST over.

tml is last paper btw!

ive gotta hang in there!

hais.....life sucks.like seriously.

i think im too materialistic.

i wanna lead the perfect life!!!

hais...

life sucks.

i think ive got no ______

and everyone's _______

cause it doesnt matter

but it doess.

you ________ like really?

idk!!!!!! URGH

sometimes you're _______

its not bout ______

but it IS.

everyone only likes to look at the bright side of things.

and i knw i will not be happy on my special day.

nth can change tt fact.

dont bother trying to comfort me.cus you'll nv understand me.

really.

theres no solution to this problem.

just like you can never solve global warming.

ok whats with the geog =.="

great.now im diao ing myself.

haha

I cant believe im related to you.

you _____

you really do.

idk what happened but i hate you.

and everyone makes mistakes.

but its ok.

i knw now tt i have nv had you.

life's ironic.

like really.

really really really.

i now knw i dont have ______

you are selfish

but thn again...im selfish too.

doesnt make sense does it.

hais.im jealous

im jealous tt ill nv be as good ________ as __________

im jealous....tt ill nv make it cus ___________

im jealous....cus im not special enough.

im jealous.....that i cannt get what i want even though i want it really badly.

Im addicted to shopping.

i wanna go haji lane!

saw a top i love!

but ITS 35BUCKS?!

currently broke.

jacq came my hse today

had fun and pillow talk

i wish everyday is like tt.

but its not.

hais

its good to catch up.

she forgot bout the maid and halfway got to go home.

so sad.

accp her to the busstop.

thn came home to my loving warmth of the the AIRCON!

these few days so fucking hot.

the aircon is my cradle!

haha.

im broke!ok i gotta pack my bag

gonna use a new bag i bought a few days ago!!!XD

LOVE THE BAG!

SUPER CUTE!

but got to find button pins to accesorise it.

=.="i hate useless stuff.

im being practical.

i rmb you gave me sth useless a few years ago.

so SUCK.this kinda ppl should really die.

gimme sth you dont need.(or i dont need XD)

just die!!!!!GRRRRRRrr

and i cant believe im related to you.

i feeel disgraced being related to you.

stupid!Pabo!Tweji!

-DANCE FEVER CRAZY!!! -(OH MY GIRL!!!!!) Watashiwa メリシャ- /멜리사/여자 이름/高琳音/높은lin 소리

2009-08-05T17:02:00.006+08:00

Sat had buffet!everybody must wear red!!

LOOK!RED RED!HAHA

Funny thing is you knw the buffet had cakes.

but there was someones birthday thn daddy sing and all like siao

laugh like crazy it was really fun

thn the ppl gave us a slice of the birthday cake

haha thn daddy so happy =.=

B4 that....WEnt to new shopping center ION!

took lots of pics but unfortunately the pics is with daddy i think

went to SEPHORA.Coolest cosmetic shop ive ever been to!!

LOOK!this is an ampule for hair!its oil inside the heart but its packaged like tt.cute eh?

Sunday went to mei mei yiyi's hse!!:D

had fun!

Ytd had maths paper 1 i thought it was hard though

but thankfully it was over.

could go home after paper 1 thn me and veron went to CP

the feeling so shiok

its like only us 8 could go home cus the rest had paper(i meant those exp)

yeah anw!!

finally ate my filet o fish!!!:D DOUBLEE!!!!!!

Taken today,was waiting for him to come thn took some video and fun.

disturb my su su haha!

Today i feel sad.

like idk why...

after met him i feel even more sad.

its like idk why too.

i dont want our relationship to be based on ____

and i dont want to be feeling like this.

it makes me feel inferior.

and i dont want to feel inferior when im with him.

i really like being with him but its just tt sometimes i really just cant stand him.

i hate it tt he doesnt knw what im thinking.

well im not trying to say tt he should be able to read my mind.

but its like idk maybe i feel tt hes not attentive enough.

its like when hes with me sometimes i think his mind is always somewhere else.

and the fact tt idk much bout him is a killer.

it makes me certain of this uncertainty even more

the fact tt idk what hes thinking is even more killing me.

i really dont knw what goes on in his head.

and i dont knw any of his frens.he nv tells me anything.

and lately ive been trying to think alot about us and i feel tt i lost myself in tt "us"

and the fact tt i dont knw anything bout him gives me a bigger wake up call,

who is he?

who am i?(to him)

who is his friends?whats his favourite thing?

what interests him?

it takes time to knw a person..i knw.

but the thing is he nv tells me anything

he remains a mystery.

though if i ask he'd tell.but i want it to be not i ask and he shares with me.

idk how to speak up

today i got a surprise.

idk what to do.

didn he say you dont want it anymore?

why go back.

i dont knw how to react.i dont knw what to do.

all i can think of is how used and cheated and idk im in a state of shock.

i hate it tt the way he does things make me feel tt im unimportant.

i hate it tt hes always so busy.like as if he doesnt have much time for me.

i hate it tt he cannt give me a whole day of his time.no rush.

i hate it tt it cant be the way i pictured it.

and i hate it tt i keep comparing him to _____

i really am.

idk why.

idk if its normal.

but i think its not fair to cheston but i just cant help doing it.

its like i hate it tt he cant make me feel special.

tt im the only girl in his eyes.

maybe i was in my own world before.

but i nv forgot how tt feels.

and it doesnt help tt i noticed he cannt make me laugh or smile much.

not like ____

urgh!see!im doing it again!

now the question is really.

HAVE I LET GO?

to be honest i have.but why do i feel this way?

its not i miss ____. i dont get it.

and i cant tell anyone.so all you get to read is this

i feel tt i really cant tell anyone.

because i can nv do it.

its more than this.

its nv tt simple.

im not saying we have problems.its just how i feel.

and it sucks tt i can only think of one person who will understand my feeling

-i really dont need this right nw.especially when CT3 is coming up and my birthday is coming up.

so now the question is....are you willing to give it up?

idk what my answer will be.but i hope i choose it right.

cause its driving me nuts.

and i nv am a cheater.not really anws.

i want this feeling to go away..

-Peace out.

xoxo

2009-07-31T19:46:00.005+08:00

Today is fel's birthday!

Happy birthday!:D

Ok school was quite slack today

but i keep getting thse headaches.idk why.

urgh annoying.

especially during maths time

couldnt do maths at all.

sibei sian.after school went to art room

i cleaned up art rm for cca.

haha tired work ok!

i swept the floor and rearrange and tidy the book shelfs.

so ah those art students ah!when you see the books ah!its cus of me ah!

ALL MY HARDWORK LEH!:D

haha so proud of myself!

anw after CCA went down to compass met the rest at sakae sushi.

had fun...

2009-07-30T21:23:00.006+08:00

*taken during emaths remedial!had so much fun!!:D*

ate alot of rubbish in class!haha but FUN!

OMG!2 more weeks!

what cake should i get?

ah!i want a nice cake for my self!

OMG!!!!ytd was cake searching!and i saw this blog tt sells cupcakes!

OMG!!!!! it looks so delish!

YUMMY CAKES = HAPPY MELISSA!:D

Arent they just lovely?

i found them at http://missyphilia.blogspot.com/

Do patronize them!

i miss him so much!

im at a dilema!

lately everything sucks.

i feel it sucks to be me.

i wonder whats wrong with me.

im so emo at everything.

sometimes its wierd.

i always compare my current to my first love.

lately ive seen the city and whit said,"well its normal to compare i mean he;s ur first love,so hes like everything you picture him to be about"

sth like tt anw..

couldnt rmb the precise words..but still..

it really hit me and im comforting myself tt its ok to compare him.

but it just feels SO WRONG.

hes worried.idk!HOW?!it will be negative!

Damn!my internet keep cutting off!

hais.

ive been thinking alot bout tt us.

and idk what to do!its like theres no affirmation

and it just kills me to be at this state!

its making me so miserable!

idk what to do :'(

i oso dunno what to do bout tt!

how??fri?sat?

DAMN!

i hate this.

you guys are not helping!

it just makes me sad!:(

Tml is gonna be fels day :D

excited!

after CCA going over to meet them and *SECRET!*

Signing out,

bored-annoyed-sad--confused-laopok laoniang!

(so much,with love :] )

Btw:

/iwanna change my blogskin!

/gotta get used to changes!

/chiong on for CT3!!!!!!!!!!

/tts all,folks!:D

2009-07-29T16:33:00.004+08:00

Since when do you come around?
And the temperature's changed
nothing's the same

Left me, in yesterday
You don't see me that way
touched me that way, no more
When you get so cold
I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
(mountain that we've made)
And the ground is shakin' from all of our mistakes
(all of our mistakes)
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If you only knew
What my heart goes through for you
I'm trying to break through
Don't you think it's worth a chance?
Let's leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
(Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)

We see what's up ahead
Why do we stay?
Watchin' us fadin'
Trapped in, by regret
There's no way out
and there's no way in (no)
And it's so cold
I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
(mountain that we've made)
And the ground is shakin', from all of our mistakes
(all of our mistakes)
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If you only knew
What my heart goes through for you
I'm trying to break through
Don't you think it's worth a chance?
Let's leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
(Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)

The bond is breaking
and it's taking over my spirit
(quickly, quickly)
Something's shifted
have we drifted too far
apart now?

If you only knew
What my heart goes through for you
I'm trying to break through
Don't you think it's worth a chance?
Let's leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
(Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)
Avalanche

Went back for oral just now.

was so happy tt i got to see him and spend time with him.

but wheres the talk?

anw went for school just now oral

it was easy.

though mr foo keep asking me like do you have any thing to add?

annoying~!

anw went home felt diff bout everything

its like wow vacation's over and its back to school

and its like im embracing it all.

its kinda cool.

spent some time with him thn he take a smoke.

its always like tt

but i like it like the moment when hes smoking thn i go lean into him and hes arms around me its like its a really nice cozy feeling :D

omg i cant believe how skinny he is and how fat i am -.-

i shall loose fats not loose weight for CNY soon!

its my new year resolution.

hahah my now new year resolution!

hahaha.

ANW tts for me to say and for you too well not say

lol.

he looks really skinny here.

this is tou pai de!haha.

thn gt sian so zilian bit.haha

oh did i mention he cut his hair shorter?haha

and he always porkupine it!

(my language for style it.like you knw chicken hair?make it spike)

yeah so its like funny.but i like it more thn his hair last time.

talking bout this, imh alr :'(

few days ago he ask me if i love him anod =.=

i said idk.lol.

no at first i gave the reason is im not ready

thn he asked why

so i said im not ready to say it because like when i say it i mean it.

and i cant mean say yet cus like you knw we just met on march thn like till now

its still like kinda short.

and plus i dont really knw much about him

its vice versa.

so i really cant say it cus i knw it cant be really define.

and all i can say is im attracted to him and fond yes like yes.

but not love.

thn straightaway after tt another fight =.="

icant rmb what we fought about though...

hmm...im getting old.

oh we happen to wear the same colour!figures huh.haha.

2009-07-29T11:24:00.003+08:00

Hello!

back to post.

man ytd wanted to go back school thn halfway got pain thn went to see doc

cus of my steamboat

haha

im so miserable

i have to like eat light stuff like plain porridge for a week!

can you imagine a week like tt

plus i cant eat meat :(

no chicken no pork

isnt it horrible!

urgh.

i just can die.

so didnt go to school today.

but i have oral so need to go back school in the afternoon

its almost been a week since ive been to school.

i miss it!

plus like i bet i missed alot of stuffs.

so i cleared the air with her ytd.

its like a burden being lifted.

i love and hate her.

its like sometimes you just adore someone but you just wanna kill them sometimes.

i mean literally but.

yeah.

anw erm..

lately my relationship's on the rocks.

im really tired of it.

i dont knw if im willing to end it.or just preservere.

like surely it has to go through some tough times to become stronger but its like

hes really getting onto my nerves

and hes so being overprotective its like theres no space anymore.

and like i want a guy who can like you knw be there but not so demanding and like not go overboard.

sometimes i just wish it never happened you knw.

like sometimes i just wish he'd get over it.

and like i really dont knw what hes thinking about and its really annoying.

its like sometimes its fine and the nxt its like woah snap!

im just really tired and idk what to do

thank goodness for my sick sick sick period tt i got like time to like think bout things and stuff.

ive nv been sick till like tt b4

first its like flu last week.

thn when im better sun i had gastric flu =.=

i thought it was food poisoning but it wasnt.

so after tt idk how it came down like it travelled down.

i would say it took the lift.cus it was quite fast.

it made me go poopy!

so became diarhoea.

omg you nv wanna have diarrhoea.

its the worst thing ever.

but im better now.

im gonna meet him like soon.

but its like hes late.

like we didnt say a time...but still?

its like im waiting for him damn long

i txted him at 10 and he replys at 11?

his time is so way off.

its like idk what hes doing you knw.

like i dunwanna knw

i just dont wanna have to question his every move.

its just tiring and idk.i guess im just confused.

well imma watch the city.

toodles.

2009-07-26T16:05:00.002+08:00

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands, tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose
What we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?

I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your

We could pretend that we are friends tonight
(Oh, oh, oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
'Cause baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
(Fighting, fighting for)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?

I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor

Why does love always feel like?
Why does love always feel like?
A battlefield, a battlefield

I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for

This song is exactly how i feel right now.

i am so pissed at you.

i dont knw whats ur fucking problem

i feel so much outrage from ur sick little game.

it aint fun and i feel very angry at you.

how can you say all this.

you are being so unreasonable.

i dont understand you.

i dont understand why.

whats become of us?

you make me crazy wanna slap you.

i dont understand.

the feeling of hatred.thn feeling of uncertainty.

whats become of that?

how do i channel the negative?

by scolding you?

Fucktard day

cancelled tuition

postponed to tues =.=

thn mon got piano

so angry.

how could you treat me like tt.

came back from JB last night

ate breakfast at home

thn we had a family car wash activity!

haha it was fun.

thn tt thing =.=

make me fucking pissed.

dun feel like doing my hw.

i dun even knw what hw there is

ask veron oso she like dunno what she talking leh.

nvm anw die thn die lah

bought a new bag in JB

thought its abit pink -.=

well its the nicest

no choice my school bag wanna spoil le.

im kinda hungry now.

i guess all that negative channeling is making me hungry huh.

im feeling kinda sick now.

maybe its tt im hungry.

but i feel so cold and hot.

hmm hope im alright.

and i hope hes not. =.=

guys are fucktards like seriously.

Don't believe everything happiness says
Nothing feels better than hiding these days
We bury our fears in the drinks, in these tears
For the days we believed we could fly

Having steamboat for dinner.

looking forward for that =.="

i dread going to school now.

i feel being torn in 3 ways..

Do you ever feel like you dont belong?

well i do now.

i feel like i dont belong anywhere.

if im here it eats me alive.

if im there my conscience guilts me.

if im over the other side id be crawling/running out the hill.

i hate this dilema...it sucks to be me.

i should go write a autobiography of my social life.

i bet it will be a hit =.="

Anw thx mirah.

you make me feel better.

and it always seem that when im in a crisis you're there.

thnks for being a goood friend.

friends forever.

classmates for life.

IM HUNGRY!

2009-07-25T12:28:00.006+08:00

Going out to see the da vinci exhibition at the science centre and going JB later in the evening!:D

Ytd hang out with classmates!

meeling,grace,fel,joanne,vanessa,veron!

went to bugis

had fun!

picture time!

went to walk walk at night haha.too bored.zi lian!

TOODLES!

2009-07-23T17:44:00.003+08:00

walau ytd drank jess's drink got sick at the night

thought i could slp it through but i kept waking up

and couldnt slp

thn my panadol dunno who take

anw came to school thn went home at recess!

went home myself

cus couldnt reach my su su

bought malay stall food and left

haha

how shiok

shared my food with susu thn share my hotdog bread too!

half half!

thn went to see doc

walau took 2hours till my turn

i fucking dozed off in the clinic?!

thn went home watched bit of tv and slp!

feel better now but like so groggy and im aching everywhere

anw i no need go school tml!

WHOOHOO

cus got MC haha.

hope tml the BT is chinese so no need to stay back and do whatever eng paper shit.

OMG

heard theres a girl from 4D who has a comfirm case of H1N1 and the whole class isolated in the basement

OMG how could you not close down the school?

i feel so outraged.

walau they should close down.

and they didnt even bother to announce it to us.

and we have to find out ourselfs.

what kind of principal?!

what kind of teachers?!

what kind of school?!

URGH!!!*OUTRAGE OUTRAGE!*

lol.but like really?WTH!

Kk im gona watch the city now.toodles!day off tml!whoohoo!

thn go out in afternoon with grace,vanessa,veron,joanne!

cant wait?!!?!

Look at my dogs!

AWW!ARENT THEY CUTE??

2009-07-22T21:51:00.002+08:00

School was so so today

had fun.

hang out with jess,grace,veron and joanne.

omg cant wait for fri!

im gonna wear my new top and shorts

though im quite certain ill be sweating?

anw

THIS VERON AH

say tt she dreamt of me last night

she said i passed her the swine flu

WALAU

you see what kind of person she is.

SO mean!

GRRRRrr

haha anw

i think somehow singapore guys are abit dull

and im like currently loving every moment of BOF!

i hearts them!

nxt day shall post the photos up tt i put up on my so called "wall"

hahaha

my wallpaper is gu jun pyo!

XD SHUAI SI LE!!!!!

Im very VERY VERY VERY ANNOYYED AT YOU.

If you dont believe me thn say so.

if you got no trust in me thn say so!

if you wanna talk to me thn just talk!

dont beat around the bush!

if you hate it thn dont start it!

if you like me thn just say so!

if you got no one thn dont use me as ur sub!

If you got time i dunwana be ur callback girl!

if you made me pissed THN JUST SAY SRY!

Your muacks dont work on me.

To Mr Certain Person

To Miss Fly(im gonna call you a fly cus you are a fly on the wall.haha get it?)

kk im certain my this habit will stay again?

if i can...lol

hmmm i wonder how the future will look like

i wish i can have insurance on successs.

its abit annoying isnt it.

oh well.

im going to watch my "the city"

TOODLES

2009-07-21T17:14:00.002+08:00

Yo!my blog is dead decided to blog.

but very lazy.so there.haahha

HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY DAY~!

2009-07-07T23:06:00.002+08:00

OMG THIS IS SO TRUE!!

Your Life

At first glance, people think you are quiet type of person. Actually you are cheerful, but conditionally. You will show your joyful character only in good mood. One the other and, when you are moody, no one would dare to be around. Because of your emotion fluctuation and frank character, some find you hard to be around.

Your Love

You hardly show your feeling towards opposite sex no matter how much you like him/her. Your partner also has similar character so affairs often take quite a while to flourish. Time tells it all. Your sincerity makes you very attractive.

Your birthday on the 18th day of the month suggests than you are one who can work well with a group, but still remain someone who needs to maintain individual identity. There is a humanistic or philanthropic approach to business circumstances in which you find yourself. You may have good executive abilities, as you are very much the organizer and administrator. You are broad-minded, tolerant and generous, a compassionate person that can inspire others with imaginative ideas. Some of your feelings may be expressed, but even more of them are apt to be repressed. There is a lot of drama in your personality and in the way you express yourself to others.

2009-07-02T21:31:00.004+08:00

Last week's news :D :

Had fun today

today jacq came my hse

felt better.

walau kena cheated

thought she mailed it out rdy

she mailed it ytd

means nxt few days thn receive?

nvm i cant wait!!OMG~!AH

hahahha

currently am broke

such a bad thing

it feels so what to be broke

i just realise he nv txt me for so long =.=

idiot.

so annoying lor.

imh abit haha

i occasionally do think of him though..

ive decided alr.

im not going to host a birthday partyy this year

because i dont wanna be unhappy because if i wanna invite tt person thn another person wont like it

if i dont wanna invite tt person

well yeah get what i mean.

so i decided if i am going to be happy,

im going to celebrate it myself.

simple.

lastly,i wanna blame the selfish ppl i knw for this

but all is well.i wont hold any grudges,

after all.you only live life once.

WTF?!?!?!?!??!

totally screwed up my oral!

WTF ?!?!?!

i just realise we nv txt for so long!

WTF!?!?!?!

How could you say that!!

WTF?!?!!??!?!

i want it!

WTF!!?!?!?!

Why YOU so mean to me!

WTF?!?!?!?!

i hate you!

WTF!?!?!??!

Is skating so impt?!

WTF?!?!?!?!

urgh this world suck.

WTF?!?!?!

kena cheated!

WTF?!?!?!

I want my necklace!!!

WTF WTF WTF!!!!!!!

2009-07-01T22:16:00.006+08:00

Today is like an ok day

thankfully i got just in time for the bus to not be late for school

school was fine today

but halfway after tt it really got my mood.

and like im really unhappy bout the whole situation

i just wanna be happy for it to go the way i want for it.

so just why are ppl so selfish to take tt away?

im not being spoilt or what

but i mean every body deserves to be happy on their birthday right?

its like a right.right?

hais nvm

its like that in this world

you cant get everything you want.

but ive been thinking and maybe i dont wanna have a party anymore

so yeah

i guess so

well not comfirm

maybe ill just invite my closest frens and with family of course.

maybe invite a few guys frens?like someone special?XD

but yeah quite unlikely though

oh i def will invite THAT GUY

because its the only thing tt making me look forward to that moment

thanks to my girls :D

now...all i have to do is buy the booze and make him drink it all up!

oh tml is chinese o lvl oral

im so scared!

o lvl leh!:(

haha.wish me luck!

actually wanna upload the photos but thn im having technical diff

cus well idk why BUT THE THNG JUST WONT LOAD!

2009-06-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

Not really in the mood to blog now.

it really got me thinking alot.

no more playing anymore.

even if i play,thn i got to work doubly hard.

not for me

but for him.

shall blog tml.

2009-06-29T20:55:00.002+08:00

OK so back to school today!

whether in the morning was nice :D

the feeling of going back to school is so surreal.

it was fun going back to school

though the lessons were...how to say it...hmmm

total boredom

anw most of the time just slacked

except for amaths

cus i really did

and omg we used to go through 2 hrs and not feel the stress but after 15,me and sandhya wanna die ready

haha

total tired

anw today is the long fala period,

sad

monday is supp to relax not go through stress.

like veron said:' our monday's blues are long gone"

or sth like tt

haha

omg i hate it!my pimples are popping out cus i ate too much fried stuff

and i cant stand my mother

she keeps saying im fat thn she brings me to eat nice foods.

last few dinners we had had been fattening and sinful.

thn like tt i how to loose weight?

anw talking bout food,,,

i had my hotdogs scallop and kangkong with rice!XD

its such a nice meal

hais bake to school tml!

btw i so hate my bag

cus idk why i hate it though

it so doesnt feeel me when i go school

hope i find a new bag soon!

oh!grace has one similar too.

hers is red.haha but its still diff

haha guess we got quite the same taste in bags?

anw....tml is such a depressing day

its only the second day of school and i have to see the turtle face.

i even like ninja turtles more than her.but i so dont like them in the first place.

can you imagine how much i dont like her?

anw its been long time since i blogged.

hope my loyal fans are still loyal?:)

cant wait for my stuff to arrive

ill strut them like crazy

time to get serious for school though

O lvl this thurs!:(

Tune in to my boring life tml!XD

2009-06-19T22:52:00.003+08:00

Ok so..my life has been basicallly boring to the brim of the sea!

so hope tt the government will extend the school holidays for the H1N1 cases!

bet it wont really happen lol.

i so doubt so.

anw.....

was too bored.

so here are some fun facts!:D

Did you knw tt......

Fun Fact #1:

He pulls you onto his chest.

While this dude may present himself as a tough guy, he's really a big softie. "By bringing you close to his heart, he's symbolically showing you that he's attached," explains communication expert Audrey Nelson, PhD, author of You Don't Say. "Holding you against a masculine part of his body — his chest — is also his way of letting you know he can protect you."

Fun Fact #2:

Stretch marks are often, but not always, the result of rapid weight gain. They can also develop during pregnancy, as a result of rapid building of muscle, or during puberty when the body is growing very fast. Unfortunately, whatever the cause may be, there is no easy way to get rid of stretch marks. The use of home remedies such as cocoa butter, turmeric powder with honey, and aloe gel, is often recommended as a way to get rid of both stretch marks and dark skin, but these remedies have limited, if any, effectiveness. With time, stretch marks will fade, although they may never disappear completely, especially if they are very prominent. The only way to get rid of stretch marks immediately is to undergo cosmetic procedures such as laser treatment or dermabrasion.

Fun Fact #3:

Chances are, you've had at least one breakup that left you wondering, "What the hell just happened?" The guy dug you, you dug him, and the whole thing felt destined for a fabulous future — at least the foreseeable one. Then, out of nowhere, he bailed on the relationship. So what went wrong? The sad truth is, maybe nothing. Here are five completely ridiculous reasons guys kick you to the curb. Warning: For the most part, it ain't pretty.

Women get serious when they meet the right man. Men get serious with whomever we happen to be dating when we're finally ready to settle down. That means after every other aspect of our life is in order — whether it's finishing grad school, finally pulling down a good-size paycheck, owning a car outright — or when our friends start dropping like flies (that's guyspeak for getting married).

But if you catch a guy before he hits that magical stage of his life, then he's liable to bolt — like Patrick,* 28, who dumped Bridgett after two years, then got engaged to the next girl he dated after only 10 months. "When I was with Bridgett, all of my friends were single and I was still an intern with nothing going on in my career. So every time she'd bring up our future together, it felt like she was jumping the gun," he says. "I didn't break up with her because she was wrong for me. I ended it because I didn't want to commit to anyone right then. But by the time I met Elizabeth, I was in a settling-down frame of mind."

Fun Fact #4:

He proudly holds your hands in public.

He wants to show the world tt you're his.That indicates that he's the type who craves a close partnership.

2009-06-17T22:10:00.005+08:00

PICTURE TIME :D

2009-06-12T18:49:00.002+08:00

These few days have been rough.

im so tired.

i so feel like locking myself up in my hse and nv go out.

seems like a good idea to go out

but once i go out,ill spend

which isnt good.

must save money.

dont think im every going to go out again.

haha.i homejail myself.

its kinda fun you knw.

at least ill have my com and everything

i have my sources of entertainment :D

tml wont be in singapore.

imh like crazy.

wo men mei jian guo yi ge yue le.

wo men shen me shi hou zai ke yi jian mian ne?

wo xiang ta wen nuan de bao hu.

wen nuan de bao bao

wen nuan de qin qin.

ni shen me shi hou ke yi dang ge hao nan peng you ne?

wo shen me shi hou ke yi zao dao "TA" ne?

wo de soulmate.ni yao deng wo.

2009-06-10T21:39:00.006+08:00

OK so thanks to ppl who invented some device which you cant copy and paste things on ppl's blogs.

i have to hand type this whole chunk a piece on my own.

well i take this as a form of exercise but some ass had to tag me...haha

yes the ass im referring to is dearest.HEEEs.

but dont wry!i still love you :D

haha

speaking of her.

some ppl say my "speech" of them powerful wor

haha THANKS!XD

Pick 10 ppl you feel comfortable around (including urself for no. 11)

1. Amirah

2. Cheryl Darlinqq

3. Grace

4. HL Milk

5. Jazlyn-Aitian

6. Elaine(but she alr did it =.=)

7. Vanessa

8. Veron

9. LZL

10. Jess

11.ME :D

These 10 ppl you just picked are stuck in a hse with you for a whole year.

There is no leaving the house at all until the year is completely up.If you had to choose a person for every question below, write down (or rather TYPE lol) which person it would be.

There are 5 rooms.who would be in each room?

Room #1: Cheryl Darlinqq, HL Milk.

Room #2: LZL, Elaine Dearest.

Room #3: Veron,Jess.

Room #4: Jazlyn-Aitian, Grace.

Room #5: Amirah, Vanessa.

(hmm well..thn where would i be?)

If there was someone singing early in the morning,who would it most likely be?

I think it would be me.haha

If someone was considered Dad and Mum of the hse,who would it be?

I think i would be the DAD and Jess could be the MUM haha.cus i mean can see tt she will put alot of effort into the family stuff.and oh.we def will have conflicts and big fights.

If you wanted candy really badly and all of the 10 in the hse has some,who would you take it from?

Simple!i take from the person closest to me.haha or rather ill just go order some.ever heard of delivery?theres nth a little FedEx and Ka-Ching cant do right?Haha :D

If someone had to watch you brush ur teeth (every) morning, who would it be?

Walau the person sure veh boliao.i mean c'mon see me brush my teeth?so....

well i think the person is me.i mean i brush in front of a mirror rite.

so im practically seeing myself.or it could be someone who like you knw...always have the same timings as me.

There was two bags of chips bought at the store.20 mins later its gone,who ate them?

well obviously must be HL Milk!

Who would hate being in the hse the most?

I think LZL or Veron.i think they both can die if they stay inside the hse for too long.haha

Someone took (brand spanking new) pair of socks tt were never worn,who is the thief?

Erm actually i dont really think someone would steal socks you knw...

if someone on my list will do tt thn they are so low.

i mean stealing?c'mon!be original!

go buy one.who wanna wear other ppl's stuff man.its so cheap!

Someone swept all the dirt under the rug,who was it?

Hmmm.lemme see...i think zilin could have the potential of doing it.haha but im sure HL will do it too?im not so sure.

If there was arguments in the hse,who would be the ones arguing?

Def Jess and Def HL Milk.I think Amirah will too

Who would be the one missing their boyfriend/girlfriend that wasnt in the house with them?

Me of course hahhaha...erm i think veron too.

You walked down the stairs in the middle of the night for a glass of water,someone is dancing on the table,who is it?

haha must be drunk one...most probably is jess i think.she likes to dance korean song dance.like the Nobody tt song hahaha

Pillow Fight!Who started it?:D

E-LAME.HAHA.jk Elaine lahs.

Theres a marathon of ur favourite show,what is it?and who would be watching with you?

Erm if it is 90210,thn Elaine and Amirah will watch with me..If is Heroes,thn i dont knw who will watch it with me hhaaha...its ok..watch alone oso shiok!XD oh ghost whisperer!Zilin will def watch with me...Boys Over Flowers...ZILIN JESS HL MILK AMIRAH CHERYL haha

Someone made a mess in the laundry room(sry cus idk wtf is fort), who is it?

Must be HL MILK

Theres a prankster in the house tt put plastic on the two toilets in the house,who are they?

Honestly,i have no idea...but if it was me id have done better thn tt...PLEASE LAH...PLASTIC?RECYCLE PLS...Id rather go with glue +candle wax...at least they are unseenable..haha.or if you wont want ppl to sit on them,throw on some chicken feathers.that would make it HEEELARIOUSSSS!!!HHAHA

The music is too loud,who turned it up?

ME!Im open to music 24/7! like seriously!and i always blast the music.Its time to partY!

Theres a mouse crawling on the floor all over the floor!

omg.ill sue the person who leash the hse to us.

Who is the one to jump into someone's arms?

HAHA i think amirah

Who would kill it?

Hmm lemme think!PEST CONTROL!

Someone is crying,who is it and what happen?

Hmm...maybe amirah or veron...must be in need of love.

Who made pancakes in the morning and almost caught the house on fire?

Must be Elaine.

Who gets sick of each other the fastest in the house?

Erm i think ill get sick..haha i need my own space.

Someone tanning on the roof,who is it?

LZL.shes so white.tan lil bit oso nvm lah.no diff haha

Who is the tallest?

Hm....not sure leh either veron or zilin bahs...

Shortest?

EASY PEESY.Amirah

Who is the loudest?

Hmm.....i think elaine or me.haha.our bickerings!

Whos the clown?

Erm.....none.its not a circus looser.

Who is the most respected?

HAHAHA...Aitian!XD

Who is the one you will talk to the most?

LZL.Disturb her everyday!XD HL MILK and Cheryl too.afterall they are my cousins what

Who is the one that always come up with stupid ideas?

Hmmm not sure..

Whos in bed first?

Elaine or amirah

If someone woke everyone up with pots and pans,who would it be?

Must be zilin or HL milk.but anywho ill choke the person to death if i was slping.

Who is always dancing?

Erm.....no idea.

Someone has the same sweater as you,so you get mad at him or her and who is it?

Erm ive no idea...actually if someone has the same thing as me and i dont like it ill just give away mine or dont wear it at all.because i dont like to have the same things as ppl.im original.im not factory made.plus i dont wear sweaters.except school ones

You spilt ice all over the kitchen floor,who would be the one to slip on it first?

Dont knw leh...must be someone who always go kitchen lor

Ok so things to look forward to!:D

Coming right up soon would be a wishlist of stuff tt i wanna get

it could be taken as a birthday idea to get for me :)

haha

oh and soon there will be an upgrade in the blog.

ok more like makeover.

as im kinda getting sian of my blogskin

but the thought of just trying to create one new one is just killing me.

so its just an idea for the time being.

plus rite...

i veh xin tong to not use this blogskin

i make it so hard!3days!?

haha.can totally drive me insane!

2009-06-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

ok since dearest asked to me to update thn i shall haha

well these few days ive been "recoopering" at home hhaha

tts what i wanna call it

im fully recovered now.

so yea but im staying home like crazy

just some things ive been doing lately.

like ytd had lunch with daddy

at waraku!

took the train down to have a nice meal

ate damn full

didnt eat dinner though

ate fruits,

ok so

had some frens over today

not really a term "some" i guess.

its more like dearest and jess.

well i did have fun haha.

we watched some tv and we watched uninvited.

thn we did some hw tgt!

well it was kinda fun.

tsk this stupid jess.

she keep doing hw

thn make me feel so guilty cus i wasnt really doing at all.

thn me and dearest made her stop doing haha went up to my room and slack

thn we did some camwhoring actually.oh before tt we had talks.thn jess like....ok nvm hahaahha

woah long time nv type ready

my hands are suaning now.

you knw its nice to have some fun once in awhile.

but sometimes like these few days

i just dont feel like going out or do anything

well ive been like staying at home eating watching tv and playing psp and well reading books.

just last weekend.

i actually spend 300 bucks on storybooks.

can you believe tt?

its so......omg.

cant stand the world.

i cant like wait to start my career and everything

i really wanna make it and make those things i wanna have and do those things i nv got to do.

i mean seriously.

like who wana live poorly rite,

ok so back to today

actually im kind of sad.cus we're to meet.

its been like 4 weeks ago.

its like hes really busy and stuff.

well i just miss him like crazy

and somehow M seem to be really tempting to be with rite now.

but well.i SO cant stand him sometimes.

i mean talking to him can feel so pekchek sometimes.

and its not the same.

i really miss C rite now.

its like the whole day i just couldnt wait for nite to come.

thn come tt msg thn oh i couldnt make it or oh im sry i cant make it.

im so so so sick of it.like seriously.

well im trying to be understanding here.

but my understanding has its limits too you knw.

well if i dont txt you thn you cannt txt me uh.

omg guys ah

seriously useless kind of species.

omg after what dearest told me thn i knw tt you guys are THAT bastard.

like seriously wtf?you think u so mature ah

if you so mature you wont even bother saying those fuck stuff.

and tt you would understand and back off.

like wtf?we kids?like real man!

we girls are SO much more MATURE thn GUYS no wait you're not even fit to be GUYS

you are BOYS.

only boys would think like tt and have a fight deem fit.

omg i cant believe im wasting words blogging bout you bastards rite now.

i should stop like seriously.

its not even worth it

but really one last thing.

GET A LIFE

you so need ONE.in fact i think you need ALOT.

2009-06-03T20:42:00.002+08:00

WHOO this is my 150th post XD

hhaha is tt like little?

anw...

i am back from malaysia and the nxt day..

which is ytd...erm tts tues.

i went to giant with zilin and thn go her hse

fell sick immediately

high fever.

went to see doc at nite

felt like shit.

fever till 39.7deg

almost went to the hospital

the doc still write letter for me in case i need go A&E

whatever tt means =.=

ok how smart is this

immediately after i see the doc come out i go toilet and vomit.

damn smart rite.

i was crying the whole time.

erm idk why oso

haha and i was freaking cold.

and hot and the same time!

wtf?

and i couldnt walk straight daddy and mummy got to carry me home.

at first could walk to the clinic

waited damn long for the stupid doc

still take his own sweet time.

i just wish i could die.

it was tt bad.

its utterly torture you knw

when i walking to the clinic thn got those shops

tt sell hps.

thn i walk by this fucking uncle call me

say.."lai xiao mei yao mai mah.wo gei ni offer"

like wtf.

ppl want to faint ready

and its a very hot day out and im wearing a hoodie jacket

unusual much?and you're trying to sell me a fucking hp?

go suck balls fucker =.="

nb sia.

where got ppl like tt one

and the whole time i walking there i was crying.

stupid uncle.

urgh.

anw totally felt like shit shit shit

came home i slp in the toilet

cus i scared i vomit

they gave me a stupid mask to wear

which was itchy and annoying

i came home wearing mask

i could feel ppl avoiding me and staring at me.

they must all think i got tt H1N1 thing?

yea anw..

i was damn sad lahs.

im so sick rdy thn like you all liddat.

hais the world is like tt

initially mummy was like tt too.

she ask me walk alone.in front so i did.

immediately i started crying

im sick and you're shunning me away?

its like when im sick the one i need most is obviously parents rite.

and thn you treat me like tt?

do you knw how it feels?

after the doc say im actually infected by virus thn she like you knw..better lahs

but im really touched.

they stayed up with me till late nite

daddy came to check up on me in the middle of the nite

i slpt in the living room and i was so hot and cold i couldnt slp

it started to rain and i keep looking out the window wishing tt morning would come.

1am 2 am 5am

daddy came to check on me at 5 am

how swt!

he gave me some medicine to eat thn put cold towel on my forehead

ask me go slp

sometimes i tell them things they cannt hear

but it was my loudest ready

who knew sick could be like tt

mummy says its the champagne =.=

what nonsense.

she say i mumble dunno what.like talk rubbish liddat.

but actually i was trying to tell them things

like water and very hot tt kind of thing.

anw...i am feeling better now.

now only slight fever but still feel like shit.

maybe not going school tml

shall see how.

kk gtg toodles!

2009-05-29T21:16:00.002+08:00

Sorry havent been bloggin of late

have been watching the BOF show like crazy

i am addicted to them!

at first i like yi jeong and ji hu especially.

but now i like gu jun pyo!!!XD

actually i like all

so i want ALL

HAHAHA

zgoing to learn all their songs in piano

cant wait to play for my frens

coolio :)

will be going to malacca tml and come back on mon

so dont miss me k!

today went to take report book early in the morning

thn come home get ready watch my show

kena scratched...

knw why?

cus the modem drop on me thn the below is got this stand one thn tall tall.

so the bottom scratched my arm when it dropped.

and i was halfway watching my husbands

scratched ready immediately it bled.

dripped off abit but nth much serious

anw was kinda scared to do anything

and i was home alone

so decided to not do anything and continue to watch my show

HAHA

went to bathe omg

it totally killed me like crazy

DAMN PAIN

they say i kena raped liddat or rob =.="

haha....but yea its quite a deep and big and long cut

its damn pain

but im alrite

ill live :D

went out with jess and elaine today.

went to ps to slack and shop and everything

had fun

we laugh like crazy

ill def miss them when i go as well as jacq and veron.

still the zippo remains.

i dont wanna keep it much longer.

its meant for you.

the first gift ever and this kinda thing is happening to me?

so wtf.

these few 16 days.

i have been trying to distant myself from you.

trying to put a bridge in between me and you,

because im afraid.

im afraid of rejection.

and the bridge is the only way it can make me feel safer

can i trust you one day tt i dont need tt bridge anymore?

i hope so..

right now..i cant see the future.

its dark and musky.

theres no light at all.

everytime you do something tt i feel dissapointed im always giving excuses for you so tt ill be more understanding

but i realised im a very selfish person.

and i need ur devotion of time.

if not you'll looose me soon.

i knw you're busy.

but how busy can one person be?

even gu jun pyo says he's busy but hes not

he seems to be SO FREE!??

urgh.

hate it.

i dont wanna keep faking a smile everytime

its really tiring and im sick of being fake.

all i want is a little of ur time.

is tt so hard to ask for?

2009-05-23T13:47:00.003+08:00

today woke up like damn early but so lazy get up

thn go slp again and wake up again and slp again

and wake up again till 9 plus thn get out..

ate breakfast left hse go tuition

fucking hot weather today.

came home.

in the end still got tuition ones.

marcus korkor the pretty boy is going to teach me again haha

oh and he is going to like give tuition

so if anyone wants emaths tutor let me knW!

he's not bad!

so came home bathed and everything

now blogging.

i very regret.

idk bout the zippo lehs..

like i veh scared he dun like

anw im kinda depressed now.

just now told mummy bout my results.

she made me feel so like dissapointed and so like..guilty and stuff.

its so annoying how im always will be dissapointing you in the end,

maybe i should just dissapoint you all the way even more,

its even better to give you no hope thn when you only pray for tt gimmer of hope.

i think it aint worth it.

anw...yea totally got to motivation to study.

now got.

i wanna beat her..

i lost to her in 3 subjects.

not literally beat lahs.

as in get higher thn HER.URGH!

i shall go cry to darling now :(

she's def gonna scold me like crazy.

going airport soon!flying!BYE :D

add on:

went to eat waraku de pasta

damn nice.

after tt went to east coast to cycle.

cycle like mad

and as i was wearing skirt

went to the flea market to buy some board shorts.

and wear to cycle

so i got a new shorts!WHOO :D

As i was in the car..

i was emo ing

i was totally emo ing.

i thought about alot of stuff.

about how i really wanted to do well.

i knw im always the dissapointment.

but i am not perfect.

no one is perfectt

i knw i have not tried my best.

but i really did try.

at least i tried.

and i knw

if i really studied.

i could have done well.

but i didnt.

and i dont wanna be like tt anymore.

just passing isnt gonna get me anywhere.

you are right.

i knw you all care bout me

but im really tired..of studying

like theres no motivation to study

its like everyone's pushing me

but i dont want to move.

im reluctant to move.

thn after tt i rmb what he said to me..

and suddenly i just miss him so much even more

its been 10 days since we last met

and every conversation we had in tt 10 days was nv long.

somehow i feel that theres a bridge building alr.

since mid years are over.

im allowed to think!hees :D

but yea anw..

its really killing me

the other day went out with mei mei yiyi

she said.

guys rite

if guys really like you.

you reach home ready call you liao.

and no matter what still will pay for you and like make time and do things for you without complaint.

i wonder when will i get tt kinda guy.

seriously to be honest.

all guys ive dated is always the one hurting me or betraying me or backstab me in the back.

ive never ever met this kind of guy b4

ok maybe i have.

but not interested kind

yeas...if only mine came knocking on the door.

even susanti said the same thing..

even daddy says the same thing

though its kinda utterly ridiculous.

but his point,which is

"what is his is mine and what is mine is mine"

is really true.

he say even before marriage or get tgt ready must like tt

but it isnt.

so i havent found THE guy...YET

how i wish he could be like tt.

but he isnt.

maybe i should widen my circle more =.=

i really wonder.

i was imagining his face when i ask him to close his eyes and surprise him

thn i think think think..

if im not allowed to shop..

thn how can i give him stuff.

and what if he doesnt like the zippo?

what about the jacket?

what about the keychain?

i mean

shoudnt the guy be the first to give first?

so im kinda confuse to give or not..

hais...

and i dunwanna like...be the first to give

cus i wanna knw how he is like to me

i mean you knw...

once you give gifts...its like u surrender liao =.="

anw its stupid.

so means im stupid.

and yes i totally AGREE

how annoying it is,i have to agree.

so i only decided to give him the zippo.

i dont even care if he likes it or not.

im fussing my brain cells over this dumb issue =.="

2009-05-22T08:40:00.002+08:00

ok lazy to blog nowadays..

decided to pon school today..

scare me thought my parents call me actually is my maid call -.-

came home now blogging

supp to get cycling and running but broke and lazy

haha ill nv loose weight this way =.=

going to meet zilin later maybe..see how.

cus i gotta get my jacket

bored like fuck rite now.

i wanna go back to slp!

walau tml got tuition :(

sian to the max about tuitions.

its totally runing my life

anw i got 1 more thing to add bout my KL trip

when we were leaving thn we took the lift down to the carpark..

at the carpark lift near there ouside.

got this big big butterfly.

which was damn preety

and it was stuck in the like room b4 you go the carpark

so it was flying around trying to get out i think..

anw it was the biggest butterfly according to my knwledge

these kinda butterflies are gonna get extinct lahs.

so rare see until them

anw...

yea it was about the size of my hand.

so we use a plastic bag to catch the butterfly thn drive out of the carpark in front of the hotel got trees and all.we set it free there..

that was the most memorable memory i will nv forget.

and i was the one tt set it free.

ytd went to school

so bored to death

came home bathe

went out to meet mei mei yiyi and her fren

watched angels and devils.

the movie is not bad.

hahaha but sadly not everyone will appreciate tt kinda film.

its really amazing the storyline

how detailed everything is.

and how everything is connected.

i swear this guy can win the writer of the year =.=

or even director.

yep sp ytd had quite a fucked up day.

first i went out thn meet them i cabbed there

stay there 5 mins i cab back

cus daddy say he go mrt pick me =.=

thn i cab home tt time i realise i lost my hp behind the cover.

so its like....my hp is coverless behind now.

wtf thn cant find?!

and i go meet daddy thn he rdy at the mrt station thn he say what erm gotta cancel my line

like wtf lahs damn sad.

im changing everything to my prepaid le

so txt me at my prepaid guys!

might not reply if you call or txt my 911!

anw yea went home and everything damn tired lahs.

slpt at like 11 plus.

txt txt txt michael till fell aslp at dunno what time.

woke up at 7 went to school

go walk around the estate wait for parents to get out thn go home.

end of story!:D

toodles!

2009-05-17T21:56:00.029+08:00

Friday, 15 May, 2009

Today after my paper was such a relieve

The paper was 1hour 45 mins

but after 15 mins i ready finished like more thn half the paper and left 3 queestions

which i was like killer.

i left like 26 marks blank =.=

there goes my A1

TSK

Hais..

anw after finishing my paper i was smiling like an idiot.

its like finish paper le!:D

anw looked around

walau zilin slping can. tsk

hahhaha

so after tt met with jacq and elaine go my hse.

bathed all did make up left.

sry i took damn long.

AFter tt went to town.

funny thing is i wanted to bring them go eat Breeks

thn i rmbed the place wrongly

so we like searching like crazy

and we were all like starting to get really really hungry.

so yea we just decided to eat pizza hut.

omg im so shock at myself.

i totally couldnt eat finish everything

after eating two slice of pizza,2 chicken and one bowl of mushroom soup i was like totally full

but yet i force myself to like eat 2 more chicken

haha drank alot.

after tt went to bugis.

dont talk bout it.

shopped.

i only bought a red dress.

finally got it!

search for damn long le.

and now i gotta find my red jacket.

tt time couldnt afford cus not enough and my music shirt oso gone TSK

damn sad lahs.

yea anw....after tt we left the bugis at 7 plus

when we supp to meet them at 7 at kovan

met them thn walk damn far thru ulu ulu place thn to this like sort of a open air pub.

the guys played darts.and the girls played kill sex mary.

haha damn lame lahs.

and we planned for my bdae thing worh?!?!

OMG i cant wait to finally get to like you knw..

hais revenge IS SWEET.

anw yea left like 10 plus damn early

Saturday, 16 May, 2009

HELLO WORLD!

sry my blog is dead.

b4 i left or the nite b4 i like totally txted all my darlingssss...like you knw to say goodbye

anw was up talking on the phone till 3am plus in the morning thn went to slp

for some fucking 2 hours

5am woke up to leave SG.

we woke up but when we set off ready like 6am plus.

anw...was like really sad tt i couldnt like meet him one more time lorhs.

maybe im not tt like no.1 impt?

anw...left and go cross the borders

slpt for some fucking few hours

was totally in a fucking mood.

anw....

went for breakfast somewhere near JB.

the wanton mee the best.

the fried kway tiao OMG

THE BEST.

its really best best best kind

yea anw near there like got alot of dogs.

and these dogs like literally own the streets.

Like LITERALLY.

they dont care got car or not.

its like their road liddat

anw this dog started to get real horny and he like literally fucked this small female dog

prob in her teens if speaking human years.

and the male dog is practically an old uncle.

can you imagine an old uncle fucking a teen girl?OMG?

and they were like in front of us =.=

like on the road.

cus is road side eat mahs.

Saw my long lost cousin XD

saw this cool car when we went into the ascott building to park.AINT IT COOL?!

yea so reached KL at around noon.

went to check in this like service apartment/hotel called Ascott.

IT IS UTTERLY LIKE HEAVEN!

Its damn near the KLCC which is the TWIN TOWERS.

and its damn near this new high end shopping mall called PAVILLION.

The hotel also has room service XD

got TV,Hi Fi system, got spa got sauna got gym got sky lounge got jacuzzi and many many MORE!

CHECK IT OUT!

AFter tt went to eat dinner with uncle Wong at dunno where.

far out from KL.

after tt went to aloha to club haha

with daddy and mummy of course.

the place DAMN happening!

after tt went back to the ascott's sky lounge to chill and look at the twin tower's view!

tts all for today!

till nxt time!:D

2009-05-15T09:08:00.004+08:00

Haha can you see the stupid duck kena shock by electricity?

tts my "msn" =.=

its called adium and it sucks alot!

Hello!

MORNING TO THE WORD~!!

i just woke up from my beauty slp

which was 9 hours of sleep!

like finally get to have a decent slp in these few days

all cause of this stupid exam

mid years=.=

fuck it.

totally screwed my bio ytd

im still thinking bout it?!

omg

ytd ytd mummy told me say tt if i faily any one of the papers

im going to be grounded for like the nxt half year

fuck

there goes my life!?

HALF YEAR!?

anw im having my last paper at 10.45

so will be leaving home soon after i eat my breakfast and all

to school!

i bet its gonna be harder thn paper 1

cant wait for after

will be going out.

maybe going the haji lane there see some nice stuff.

i really havent shoppped in ages.

and its killing me.

i need to get a leather jacket soon

cause i want one!:D

its damn cool.

hais but i ready promise him not to shop..

they say there are lots of vintage stuff at the haji lane

maybe i met find sth i like...

hope i can control myself not to buy :(

today quite broke

only got 60 bucks

so i hope tt helps me

hais...

walau its like 3 weeks and 1 day to the singapore idol audition

i really really wanna take part!

now like nv sing le :(

anw last nite jacq and i got say go sing K soon

during hols or sth

after shes back from hols

last nite so funny

we skype-ed

like web cam all

damn funny lahs

really really coolio

thn she call me all

thn ask everyone to call in conference

thn talk until quite fun

but elaine say wanna call back thn nv.

she miss out the fun sia

nxt time call longer lahs

tsk

HAHA.

thn we disturb veron say he bestfren when she talking to him

hahaha ok more like me.

kachiao kachiao

but i think she nv hear

LOL

lucky!

haha bet shes gonna ask me bout it soon.

ok going to stop blogging le time to go school get changed and everything

going to meet zilin outside school :D

time to mug on the way to school!

totally no mood for papers le!

i miss him right now :(

he thought i nv go school lol

so cute.

i hope hes doing well in school :D

and hope he comes today

its gonna be quite fun

gonna take lots of pics

i hope tonight can blog b4 i go tml.

wont be blogging for the nxt 4 days

starting tml.

so my blog will be dead!

hope he miss me :)

cus i am going to~!

4 days without him :(

i nv told anyone this but when i went japan on the plane i cried cus i like so she bu de to leave _____ lol.

tsk walau casper finish his paper le lorh

ytd they go watch movie without me!!GRRRRRR

cant go anw

mummy say b4 exam finish cannt go :(

ytd new bed came le

thn help them make the bed

I CAN PROUDLY SAY I AM THE FIRST TO LIE ON IT!HEE :D

ok gtg.hope to be back in time to blog for the world to see :D